Divine Grace...

A virtue coming from God...   demonstrates compassion for those less fortunate...

I have felt unwanted for almost all my life... From being taken away and, granted, put within a most wonderful family, to my growing up.  God gave me my Mom and Dad and they were wonderful and loved me the best they knew how, as we all parents do with our children.   That was God's Grace in action.  Being put into the huge family, that I was, left those who were there before me, a kind of jealousy.  They had my Mom for many years before I came into their lives and the some of the family were not pleased.  Thus, it made me feel "unwanted". I was blessed with 2 members who loved me and continue to this day.  I have no doubts they love and want me. During my growing years there were many times there were comments made either to me or that I heard, about me "not being part of the family".  Two of my Aunts actually said that to me and to my Mom.  Mom thought it was ridiculous and let it go.  However, it, again, made me feel "unwanted"...

When I got married, I felt "special" for awhile, but after the new wore off, and the hitting began, I was left feeling "unwanted" again.  Every time I went through a period when I was hit or belittled, I was left feeling "unwanted".  As the years went by, I leaned on God's Grace more and more.

More to come...